By blue Ontario's shore I walk,
Through the slatted blinds and shadowed windows Of an office cell, scuff Over weed-strewn rail tracks, pass Beneath the highway’s rusted stilts, skirt A line of steel and concrete stacks Girding the waters' edge, catch Curls of sulphur In a wisp of wind that scarves Along the Sound from Sudbury, spot Three white fish, belly-up In the shallows, stretch My legs to the pulse and pound of the city. Opulence pursues me, in the rivet Self-importance of a lawyer’s gaze Speeding twixt King and Queen To a lunch-time tryst. Opulence towers above me In tall buildings where air-conditioners Whisper secrets to lonely men And secretaries dream of lovers rampant In a codpiece stuffed with dollar bills. Wealth and dreams of wealth Drift in the busy air, coiling Round lottery-ticket stalls On street corners and in aluminium malls, With a wanton flutter of the soul, And then meander on, down Yonge and Bay, down beyond The Royal York Hotel lost in memories Of a stately age, down beneath The lakeshore tunnel, accosting This pedestrian and that, down Into the lake itself. I turn westward, as a migrant Follows the sun. Once the people of the longhouse shared This place with deer and elk With scented pine and aspen tambourining In a silver breeze; They drank quietly of life and war And of the silence of the shore. And died, melting like snow Upon a chinook night, bequeathing images Of scattered fugitives with hunted eyes And the two-cent passions of an alien race. Their sons and daughters yet appear on stage Garbed in nostalgia and with a stern expression Cast for dignity before a crowd As fleeting stars of scream and rage. I see you loiter with malingering intent Casting for a quarter on Bloor Street West With hair lank and straight black And an empty bottle hanging from a pocket Like a guilty thief come to the bitter end. West, through ramshackle streets With market stalls, and unfamiliar tongues Bargaining, and outstretched hands Beckoning, and fingers coining. So many here that fled: From the fires and fetters of Europe, Whose creeds and gods and effigies Chained the leaping of our spirit And burned our hearts on altars Of doctrinal and political ambition. And from the wastes of poverty, Lands of crooked limbs and minds Misshapen by deficiencies of vitamins and trust. Westward, Eye intent upon a patch of forest A hut squatting in a morning mist A door proof against the avarice of time and man. Meeting at best indifference From the locals and at times contempt, Quiet, deferential, obsequious to suit, We sweep the streets, wash out latreens - Our souls for rent if need be as we search A final lodging for our dreams - Drag our furniture on garbage night From sidewalk dumps in Rosedale and Forest Hill, Singing with success as hunters Returning from the kill..... I too burst into song, astride my vision, Drunk with the vastness before me, Join my voice to the call Of wolf and loon on moonlit nights Proclaiming their dominion, My thoughts to the spindrift shimmer Of lakes and rivers running free. I will walk upon that distant soil; I will tread those white valleys flowing Before me into a white horizon, All the whiteness of my days before me And dream they will bleed with my passing. Orig 1982 (revised incessantly)
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